LOL Hell's Kitchen. LOL Chef Ramsay. Just LOL, LOL, and LOL.

Hmm. I got to see Barack Obama rally yesterday at College Park and then again downtown at the Mariner Arena, and both time were really exciting and great. Those were my first political rallies and I can now say without a doubt I know that my vote was cast for the right person today. I really hope that he wins Maryland tonight, the democratic candidacy, and the presidency in November. I'm not so much for hype, but just being in both stadiums, even before Barack showed up, the energy in the the entire place just reeked of...I don't know. Just positive, forceful energy. It was very weird. O.o

And at first I wasn't really feeling well and was debating about going, but I went and just...to see all of these college students giving a damn about the person running their country, it was just absolutely amazing and I'm so glad that I was apart of it.

OH and Barack kissed my friend's BABY. IT WAS SO COOL. AND HE'S SOOOOOO HANDSOME But that really has nothing to do with my vote, I'M JUST SAYIN. We got a video of it too! Good stuff. :D

So I voted for Barack today [with my parents, who also voted for Barack even though my Dad grumbled about it :P], and I felt really good afterwards. Also, the old-lady-volunteers there were all like "Awww, another young voter! This election has been so exciting, to see all you kids voting this time around." I was afraid she was gonna pinch my cheek too. >.>

But yes, I hope it just makes a difference come November when I have to do this again.

EDIT: BARACK WON VIRGINIA. YAY! POLLS EXTENDED HERE IN MD FOR ANOTHER HOUR. OMG SO CLOSE. >>>>>>:0

EDIT2: MARYLAND TOO, YAY!

I CAN'T WAIT TO SEE OBAMA AT THE UNIVERSITY OF MARYLAND ON MONDAY. \:D/

THEN VOTING ON TUESDAY! :-D :-D :-D

Wow, now that is just ridiculously too thin . . .

Not that I wouldn't buy one of course, but 3000 dollars? I mean, Wowza.

So. I have been sick for a week and really haven't been out of my house to breathe. I'm starting to feel the fact that I'm taking in stale and reused oxygen. I was wondering why I never write in this thing anymore and I think it's because over the last year I haven't really felt the need to write, I've just been out living and storing the memories accordingly, but for now I do regret not writing a lot of that down in here - The important events in my life anyway. It's a really good reference spot. I really have no place to begin so I'll just write what comes to me.

I've realized that I have two modes to myself.

- First, The really lazy me that wants to go nowhere, see no one, and do absolutely nothing. I sit and brood and am annoyed at life. I'm a homebody and during that time I see absolutely nothing wrong with how I ignore everyone else around me. My mom has given me the "What the hell?" look a lot of times this week. And I've argued with my dad none stop. It's been a week of this mode and now I'm starting to itch to turn on the off switch [heh].

- Second, The really active me which wants to go everywhere and see everything, and talk to total strangers. I like this self more because I have come to find that I'm very friendly, maybe sometimes overly friendly, but it doesn't bother me and I like to smile alot and I just feel good about everything, even if the situation doesn't call for it. The optimistic side of me I guess.

But doesn't everyone switch like this? I'd like to call it crazy, but after writing that and then rereading it, it seems like a natural occurrence that anyone would go through. Right?

Anyway, school will be starting up again in a few weeks and I have pledged to myself to really concentrate on my classes and also implement working out everyday (at least a half-hour!). I've already started exercising for an hour everyday this week [even while sick!], and I feel so much more energized that it's ridiculous. I think it also help me to get over my cold faster. My grades for last semester were totally unacceptable, especially because of the fact that I know that I'm a good student. I should not have lost sight of the goal. I have just been very careless as to what I need to do and I had forgotten that working hard in school comes first. I've been so irresponsible, it's retarded. But I really do intend to do well this semester. Good things are coming this year, I can feel it.

In other news, I got a cat. Which is weird for us, because I've always said to my parents that I'd get a cat for when I moved out but they decided that they suddenly wanted a cat [well, my mom did at least] and now we have one. She's very energetic as she's a kitten and she's a regular part of the family now. Everyone loves her, and she loves the attention.

Christmas sucked, New Years was actually a lot better but not its best, and I miss my grandmother.

I feel like shit right now, but then I also feel okay if I take everything into account. Things are okay, but they could be a lot better for me. But it's really up to me to change how things will go from now on. I have a feeling that things are about to change drastically for me. And I don't know why, I just have this feeling in my gut that something is going to happen. It feels like my heart is on the edge of a really tall cliff and is looking over the edge in uncertainty. I really don't know if it's something good or bad, but it feels like I keep losing my breath at odd moments. It's really weird, but I feel like I should be preparing myself for it. I don't want to run away when the time comes to face whatever it is.

Oh yeah, I threw up yesterday. I have no idea why, and I didn't have any warning like I usually do. I've gotten really good over the years of stopping the urge to vomit because my body gives me enough time to prepare myself for it. But not this time, it was so weird. And It wasn't even near a meal or anything, my stomach wasn't upset, I was just thinking and jotting stuff down in a notebook and all of a sudden, WHAM! Throw up. I mean I got to the bathroom in time, but it was barely IN TIME. I really am stumped as to what happened, and after that I was totally fine. I don't know if it was my thought process at the time or if my body just decided it wanted to purge. . .

Really strange.

This entry is so disjointed that it's making me laugh, but I'll continue.

The L Word's 5th season premiere is coming on tomorrow night, does anyone watch that? It looks really good! At least that has a plot and character development, QAF was so retarded in that way although I enjoyed it at the time of its airing. I was watching the reruns of season four that they've been replaying all week and I have noticed that the character of Bette and I are really really similar. She can't find a single flaw within herself (or the ones that she can find don't really matter) that she drives the people she cares about the most away. She's a real control freak *bows*, and she's always asking other people to tell her what's wrong with her [like she doesn't already know *shoots in the head*]. She loves other people to the best of her ability (which if i admit, she's very, very committed to the people she loves. or atleast she thinks so), but really she just sucks at it. Her character is very very interesting and I really like her a lot. I can't wait to see what the season makes of her. I really want the Jodie<Bette<Tina drama to go on, it'll suck if it's just Bette-Tina centered all season, I really feel that Tina is too weak of a person for her, but! And I want Tasha's character to develop more she seems very cool. Um...I guess that's all for now. None of this entry made any sense, but I guess that makes it unique in it's own way. Usually my entries are always planned out in my head and written, but I'll post the first entry of the new year a little unconventionally. :P EDIT: FUCK I JUST COUNTED AND ONLY 15 ENTRIES FOR 2007. WOW, THAT'S RETARDED. AND WHY IS MY ENTRY ALL LUMPED TOGETHER AT THE END??? FUCKING LJ. o.O

Oh! Thank you so much for the card, pocketroxy!! ♥

It’s such a pretty card too, all covered with snow. :D :D

So I finally caved and bought this. Looks fabulous, does anyone on the flist actually own one? I'd love to hear if it's as great as I imagine it. :-?

I didn't go out tonight to celebrate or anything, but I did hand out candy to the kidlets [that includes a fairy, a ghost, a witch, a vampire, a cheerleader, and a cat]. Which were all very cute! I remember my favorite costume growing up was my Pink Power Ranger costume (wasn't every little girl that in the 90's?). :D What was your favorite costume?

SO. Instead of partying, I decided to watch the scary movie marathon which for some reason was very disappointing this year. I really love old scary movies but if I see The Omen, Child's Play, Halloween:1, 2, 3, and 4, and/or The Shining one more time I'll kill myself. And the horror movies of today are PLAIN GARBAGE. Saw IV? Give me a break.

Does anyone else miss Beyond Belief: Fact or Fiction? I wish they still showed the reruns on SciFi, at least. I could really go for some repeats of it right now. OR SOME GOOD FIC, MIRITE?

Um...School has started. I'm really tired right now; I think I've developed some sort of sleeping disorder. I can NEVER just fall asleep when I want to and it's having an impact on my daily performance. I cannot stay awake during class. *yawn* No wonder they say that this generation is so sleep deprived.

Anyway, I am taking 18 credits this semester and I haven't felt the weight of it hit me yet (but I'm sure I will!). I just hope I manage to get some Zzz's in before that happens.

I still have yet to read Deathly Hallows - I think I'm hesitant to actually finish the series, even though I know what happens and all that jazz. I'm just biding my time, I'll get to it. But I must say that there are a lot of post-DH D/H (heh) fictions that I've bookmarked. Rhysenn's (iscaris) The Debt comes to mind, especially. It's nice to see that she's still in the fandom after all this time has passed in between Irresistable Poison. :)

Naruto Shippuuden is SLOW, wow. When the heck are the going to realize that doing one manga chapter PER episode is not working?? They might as well be doing filler. Though I admit, the last few episodes have been pretty entertaining (even if Sakura is a useless kunoichi). I just think of it as one more episode closer to SASUKE. :D :D :D

Speaking of Sasuke, Sound of Dreams will be wrapping up pretty soon (70 chapters, without a break, since November of last year, WOW!), and I'm going to be sad to see it go, such a great fic within the fandom. I love zrina, she's a great author and I love how she interacts with her readers and is always, always positive about her feedback. I can't wait to see what else she has in store for us.

Neh - I say this every post and I'll keep saying it just to keep the mental note. CATCH UP ON THE GAME, AVONNE.

WOW. HAVE STILL NOT GOTTEN THROUGH ALL OF THE BOOK. *GRANTS HERSELF “THE WORST HP FAN EVER” AWARD*.

SAYING THERE’S NO TIME IS REALLY NOT A GOOD EXCUSE AT ALL, BUT THERE REALLY IS NOT ENOUGH HOURS IN THE DAY. CAN I KILL MYSELF NOW? I WANT TO FINNNNNNNNISH THISSSSSSS.

ANYWAYS. HAVE NOT TYPED AN ENTRY IN A WHILE. ACTUALLY, IT’S BEEN SUCH A LONG TIME THAT I DIDN’T EVEN REALIZE THAT MY PAID ACCOUNT HAS EXPIRED AND THAT I AM TOO CHEAP TO RENEW IT. ANOTHER REASON THAT I HAVE NOT WRITTEN IS BECAUSE I’VE BEEN AVOIDING LJ LIKE THE PLAGUE JUST TO NOT COME ACROSS ANYTHING TO RUIN HP FOR ME. SO FAR, SO GOOD.

ALSO, FALL SEMESTER IS STARTING IN 24 DAYS AND I’M SO NOT PREPARED FOR THAT. I FEEL LIKE I DIDN’T EVEN HAVE A SUMMER. AND I HAVE NO MONEY FOR BOOKS [BUT I DID HAVE MONEY FOR THIS. :D:D].

A LOT ACTUALLY HAPPENED IN JULY, BUT I’M TOO LAZY TO CONJURE IT ALL UP TO WRITE A PARAGRAPH OR EVEN MAKE BULLETS ABOUT IT. AND THIS IS WHY I WILL SUFFER IN THE FUTURE FOR LACKING MEMORIES OF LAST MONTH’S ACCOUNTS. POOR ME.

AND YET AGAIN I HAVE SUCCEEDED IN WRITING SOMETHING, WHICH IN ALL ACTUALITY IS A BUNCH OF NOTHING. OBVIOUSLY I’M GETTING TOO GOOD AT THIS. AND WHY IS THIS WHOLE ENTRY IN CAPS LOCK?

I know it's really weird (it being summertime and all), but I really cannot stop shopping through this website.

I always did love socks, but Sock Dreams takes the cake. Such a variety of things and the 'Thigh-His' category has completely won me over. *rolls around on the floor*

I can't wait for these to be delivered to me:
*1 pair of Ribbon Lace Trim Stockings (which are actually the ones shown in my icon).
*2 pairs of M Stripes. I got Charcoal/Grey and Black/Fuchsia (and I also love that you can preview the different combos of colors when you click on each option button!)
*1 pair of Lace-Top Lycra Faux Lace-Up Stockings (for my Gothic Lolita Dress that I'm wearing for an anime convention later this month - super excited about that!)
*1 Lace Garter Belt & Thong (to help my gorgeous new socks to stay up! :D)

I am in looooooove with this site and I wanted to buy a lot more than that, but I will wait to see how I like this order, then proceed to waste the rest of the money that I earned this summer. :P

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Oh and Transformers was great, I thought. ( I saw it with my mom and dad... )

So. I have been working at the Safeway for over a month now, and I have to say being a cashier is a physically demanding job. You're on your feet a lot. I think I've developed minor back problems, but overall it's not so bad. :P It's just lifting those FUCKING 24 PACKS OF DASANI WATERS. >:o *pulls out back*

I actually like my coworkers. Most of them are in my age group, so there's plenty to talk about in the break room and out on the floor. And I haven't grown to hate any of my managers yet...[er...excluding Venice. Are all pregnant people that irrational? O.o Maybe it's the heat >.>].

Other than that, nothing exciting going on in the life of me. The last HP book will be out give or take 2 months - bah I'm so unimpressed by how early this is happening. It seems like she was rushing to finish it or something. Not excited in the least. -.-

Naruto (the manga) has taken such a weird turn lately. Sasuke is so....un-Sasuke-like. Which is such a turn-off, Kishimoto. Pleh. Or maybe this is his true self and he's been covering up all this time. But boy, that sure is a long time for some acting. Geez. The plot of The Sound of Dreams still reigns supreme, over Kishi's plot. How pitiful. I'll be sad when you're finished with that, Zrina. :((

BUT BUT DEATH NOTE IS SO WITH THE AWESOME. *gushes* L/Raito FOR THE FUCKING WIN. WHAT A MIND-FUCK!Anime LUV IT LUV IT LUV IT.

That is all.


AND ALSO JAMESY'S 1st BDAY IS COMING UP SOON. I AM SO UPSET AT NOT KNOWING WHAT IS GOING ON WITH THE BOYS. BUT. BUT I WILL NOT MISS THAT. EVEN IF THE EVENTS IN WHICH IT TAKES PLACE MAKES NO SENSE AT ALL.

I got a job! I'm glad becuse i definitely wanted to work this summer and I know from past summers that if you do want to work you have to get things together early.

I am now an employee at Safeway which is fine because I like that safeway, it's nice and quiet most of the time (except sundays because of weekly sales). I'm training to be a cashier right now - which is >.> um, fine I guess. I'm more worried about memorizing the PLU codes (which are the numbers you have to know to enter for produce and so since they don't come with barcodes) and fucking up somebody's total than getting robbed. Go figure. I get paid 7.50 an hour which is alright with me. Not really doing it for hardcore cash of anything, I just want some job experience since this will be my first real job. :)

Things are a little better, the weather is excellent lately (although the pollen count continues to kill me), finals are coming up and surprisingly enough I'm not really stressed out over them. I've been really calm and relaxed the last few days, and I have no idea why! But I'm not complaning.

My brother had his birthday last weekend, he's 16 now *winces* and best friend's grandmother had her birthday yesterday, and today is her boyfriend's birthday. I need to make a mental note to call him later.

Also another note, SoD is still an awesome fanfiction and Death Note is one excellently written anime. *kills the campus connection*

Ugh - can I just kill myself?

I have so much work to do, I haven't gone out with my friends in ages, I turned 19 and didn't celebrate, I'm still a bit heartbroken, spring semester couldn't be any longer, I wish spring weather would just come already, I got pulled over by cops twice, I'm so lost with the game...I tried to read a post today to see what's going and and went, "...?" HOW SAD, I don't think it is humanly possible to ever catch up on sleep.

AND 33 people died today at Virginia Tech (and wtf, the anniversary of the columbine shooting is on friday? what the fuck was this guy doing? going for a record? Well. He beat it. The fucker. ). I have friends that go there, I need to try to contact some people. :(

I couldn't be more down right now, I don't think.

Oh look, The Omen is on.

*DIES FROM TEH SEXXORS* SASUKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKE!!!

WHO CARES IF YOU'RE 15(almost 16?)?!?!?!?

Anyone else itching for ch 345? >.>

I just wanted to post on the awesomeness that is zrina. If she was available and gay (not that I'm too sure of either...), I'd totally go for it. :D

She has been updating and adding on to her current NaruSasuNaru masterpiece, The Sound of Dreams since about the beginning of November and I am just so in love with it. I cannot get enough of it; Tuesdays and Saturdays [her update days] have to be pretty much the best days of the week AND ALSO BECAUSE I HAVE NO CLASSES ON TUESDAY REALLY, AND OF COURSE NONE ON SATURDAYS, DUH. >.>.

AND YOU KNOW A STORY'S GOOD when you are anticipating the author's next chapter rather than the next episode of the actual series...o.O.

Not to say that the first episode of Naruto Shippuu-Den wasn't fatabulous, the best thing ever, noteworthy, god-like, everything I have been waiting for? awesome in its own right. Yeah, I had a Narutorgasm. What of it? AND SASUKE YOU WERE SO BEAUTIFUL AND SO VERY GAY IN THAT OPENER. NARUTO LOVES YOU!! CAN'T YOU SEE?!?!? *points to icon*

Ahem, but yes, back to the topic at hand: I just cannot describe how good this fic is. There's so many elements to it that it is hard to describe and understand how she does it. Man, I love a good writer that regularly updates. *sighs*

Oh look, it's Tuesday. :D :D :D

Wow, lots of stuff happening this week. I'm excited!

1. Valentine's day, which by the way I still bought something for her(some of you know that situation) despite all that's happened. I just like giving stuff. :P

2. Hana Yori Dango Episode 6 - YES YES, what a good Jdrama. It's getting really good. So much has happened in only 5 weeks...

3. And last but not least NARUTO SHIPPU-DEN!!! I have been waiting months for this, I really can't wait for it to start. AND AN HOUR LONG EP TOO, YAY. SASUKEEEEEEEE...... *weeps* I need a Naruto 2 icon.

I feel like I never have anything to say anymore, and it's weird because things are actually happening in my life. I just feel like there's never any time to sit down and think about it. Hmm.

Annnnnnnd I still have to respond to your email pocketroxy, Love. I didn't forget. :D

coffeejunkii!!

Thanks so much for thinking of me! Just what I needed for this terrible week. When I opened the package today, it made me smile. ♥

You're such a sweetie! :D

YAY, Hana Yori Dango Season 2 has started and SARS has uploaded the subbed version of the first episode to download through BitTorrent!!! I'm so excited as the last season was so, so GOOD!! I LOVE YOU, SARS.

DOUMYOUJI!!!!! GUH, HE'S SO EFFIN HOT! *dies*